This one is also a picture of a random fire that popped up in the area we live… Those darn hot days
When you are your most busy and stressed, take a moment to look up and rejoice! It’s the little things, I love gazing at the clouds and catching an awesome sunset. Which we are rushing out of the house to do now!
These are in no way in order, they are just what I have taken so far this year. I am doing a P52 with Paint the Moon on This is Our Life a Let’s do 52 project. It is a lifestyle photography project. Great idea and something I was already doing, now this gives me reason to post them and put our name on it… Anyways, if you want you can go check out all of the other really great photographers who are doing the same thing and who are better at keeping up with the posts each week…
Anyways, have a great night!
So, I know I have a ton of things I am supposed to finish up and keep going. And to be honest I have been doing majority of them, just not on the blog. I don’t know what it is, but for some reason I can’t get myself to sit in front of my computer and type up a post or just post a picture or two. I’m really hoping that I can be better at this and post at least 2-3 times a week.
Anyways, here is another fun thing I plan on doing for this month. It might not be the whole month, because I have taken an initiative and done at least 3 posts already. Whoot! Whoot!
So I have been following Jenn over at Baby Making Machine for at least two years if not longer. She is awesome and she is inspiring, and this is where I am taking my newest posts from. She and a few others are doing 30-31 posts called 30 things my kids should know about me. Here is the List of questions or prompts, I’ve read majority of them and as it goes along I could potentially change some or switch up the questions. The other thing I am doing right away is just posting. No fun graphics, no fun photos (ok maybe a few) but I will come back later and revamp the questions and answers up to be able to make them into a book. Thanks to Erica (who knows Jenn) there are graphic prompts that you can download and use for free… SWEET!!!!! Or you can download the printables here for free. Anyways, here you go enjoy my first post…
List 20 Random Facts About You
- I dislike chocolate but love a good red vine
- I heart buttered pecan ice cream, but don’t eat it as much because of my girls food allergies
- I love watching scary movies, but attached to that. I also see movie scenes in through out the day
- The truth hurts but I would prefer that over a lie any day
- I consider myself to be tall and have always wanted to be a gymnast or a ballerina
- I love horses, but I’m also afraid of horses
- Stopping to smell the roses is my ultimate goal in life, which means slowing down and enjoying life and the little things
- I don’t need expensive things for a gift, but I do expect some type of acknowledgement on my birthday.
- My sister is my best friend, but she can also be super annoying
- I love my niece, Baby K, as if she were my own child
- I worry about raising confident and respectful children
- I strive to be a role model, sometimes I slip but you learn in the mistakes
- I never wanted to be known as D-boys mom, Mini Mouse’s mom or Miss Marie’s mom. I have a name too
- I love being a mommy, but sometimes I don’t like it
- I would do anything to protect my children, husband, niece and sister. Messing with them is like messing with me
- I used to be a violent and angry person
- I love God, but I also question God
- I’m not afraid to ask the tough questions or have the tough conversations. But if I don’t have to have them, I’m cool with that too
- I’m so proud of my kiddos and so happy that I am their mom
- I love myself, and I think I’m pretty sexy/hot/cute
1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears (graphic version)
3. Describe your relationship with your spouse.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. If you could have three wishes, what would you wish for?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrassing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. What’s the hardest part of growing up?
14. Describe 5 and weaknesses strengths you have.
15. Describe when you knew your spouse was the one or how I fell in love.
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What do you think your spouse loves most about you?
19. How did you feel the moment you became a parent?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. Describe your relationship with your parents.
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. What’s your favorite holiday and why?
24. What’s your favorite and least favorite thing about parenthood?
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What’s your favorite quality in your spouse?
29. What are your hopes and dreams for your prosperity?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.
So, did I mention that I will come back later and pretty all of this up? Yeah I will, when i get a big burst of energy. Until then enjoy
I have on occasion compared my marriage to what others marriages look like from the outside. I’ve seen the way the marriage looks on the outside, what they show to everyone and how I feel about each person in the marriage. And I’ve looked at my marriage and said, “Hummm, we don’t do that. Does that mean he doesn’t love me as much or that I don’t love him as much because I refuse to do x, y or z.
Whatever the case I know that what I see is only what I can see from the outside, it is only what people want us to see of their lives and marriages.. It’s my one-sided view and I’ve been surprised and saddened on more than one occasion in the past 2-3 years. When I see marriages of close friends dissolve and fizzle and I wasn’t even aware anything was wrong, sometimes they don’t even know anything is wrong. Or when one half of that marriage turns into something I never imagined he or she would. It makes you re-look at your own marriage, it makes you wonder will this happen to us. Most of all it makes me realize that marriage isn’t easy and it’s hard work, and when the going gets tough what am I going to do.
Ike and I have been through some tough times, some of the things we have been through would make a person run for the hills. I know there have been times I have been ready to run and leave well enough alone. But there was always something that held us together. When we got together we both swore that it would be until death. #PERIOD. I had said that if it didn’t work out between the two of us I was going to become a lesbian and swear off men for life. He said that he would just harass me relentlessly until I came back to him. Yeah, this is my reality just so you know. I still chuckle whenever I remember that conversation.
Comparing your marriage to another person’s marriage doesn’t benefit anyone. When there’s something that’s weak in my marriage the only thing that I can do is work on making it stronger or breakdown crying like a little baby and blame it on someone else… Ok, not really! If something is out of my control accepting it and trusting God is the next best. But if I’m going to be honest I need to also be honest about my trust in God, or lack of trust in God.
Small back story. I was raised in the church, I spent almost every waking moment (when I lived with my grandmother) in church or doing some type of church function. To me the only bad part was I was the only child around, and because I was the only child around there wasn’t much I could get away with or do. I loved the attention and I learned a lot from my elders. Growing up I had this unconditional love for this imaginary guy, so much so, that my bio mother hated me. But that’s also a whole ‘nother story… She hated me because I was evil, or so she thought. I’m not saying I couldn’t be a handful because I was. I mean she forced us to memorize a new verse out of the bible every week and I had to find it. So, being me I would find one that I felt pertained to her specifically. Meaning my verses had ulterior motives, when she would yell at me I would recite a bible verse. When she would tell me she brought me into this world and she could take me out, I would gladly correct her that actually God brought me into this world and when he is good and ready he will take me out. I even told her at one point that her actions were nothing but the devil, yeah, and I never returned home after that comment…
What I was trying to relay with that short back story was that I was and now am a Christ Follower, I believed without a doubt that my savior lived and that he would be back one day. But my silly humanness started questioning things in my life, repeat things in my life, things that I swore I had packaged up so nice and neat and placed in it’s rightful place on the shelf in the back of my mind never to resurface like that again. Life or God has a funny way of making you deal with things in your past or just re-looking at it in another perspective. When this started happening I immediately took a u-turn and refused to deal with it. Because, dammit, I had already done that shit. My past was my past and it had no right coming up. But I also questioned God and if he was real or some figment of my imagination. Because my questions were always, “How can a LOVING GOD ALLOW x, y, and z to happen, etc” I just could not wrap my head around a God that could see all of this and know it before it happened and then allow it. Who does that? The hardest part for me was that I started feeling like I did as a youngster, and when that happened my marriage became very strained. I worried about it, but not as much as I worried about myself and my children. So instead of focusing my energy on my marriage, I focused it on myself. So many told me that at some point I needed to be the focus of my own attention and so I worked on getting me healthy and better and happy.
I had to relearn that I am the keeper of my happiness and once I realized that I could be happier in all things family, and marriage. I was able to see my husband for what he was, a human that has faults, that has a past he is dealing with, that has hurts, etc. We both came into our marriage with some heavy ass baggage, some so big and heavy that they could have destroyed what we have. Because those bags started to open and spill out and we were drowning trying to figure out how to repack them and not deal with them. Whatever the case, me starting to deal with my baggage really helped me to come in clear headed.
Now to switch up the conversation to Passion in Marriage. I personally think it’s realistic to expect to have passion in your marriage all of the time, just kidding. If anyone knows me I’m not the mushy type of person. As parents of 3 young children, Ike and I aren’t able to do a lot of the things that we did in the beginning of our relationship when it was just one kiddo in the house. Things are different now, we have kiddos that are more active, getting older, wanting to do more things, staying up later, just plain busy. And to be honest we are in a different season of our lives. This season looks a lot different than what I expected, but it is what it is and I am learning to embrace it.
I have never been a touchy feely (yeah I made up that spelling) type of person, I love my children and my husband but I can love you from a distance. I have a personal space thing and when you step over that space (without my consent) I can get pretty annoying. My husband learned that when he would walk in the house and smack my ass or grab for my boob … I let him know I am not a piece of meat and so I would appreciate if you would not do that. He heard none of that, so I started doing it to him… yeah he learned quick, because he hated when I did it to him. But I did have to learn that he loves affection and when I touch him, and he had to learn that I like “affection” it just doesn’t always have to be by touch (it’s a childhood issue that I don’t think I will ever get out over). Whatever the case, us learning about our likes and dislikes has really helped our relationship. We have started to date again, and dating is fun so our relationship is fun. Because we have moved to Texas and don’t have a trusted sitter yet, we have had to adjust how we go out as a couple. We do dates in the morning while the kiddos are at school, we go out to lunch, catch a new flick, go for a motorcycle ride or whatever the day brings. We schedule movie nights, granted most of those have started with the two of us sleeping on the couch because we fell asleep within 10 minutes of the movie starting. Whatever the case, we are working on us now. And working on us has brought us closer together, after all he is my best friend and I his.